nobody cares how I feel from the inside. Nobody even want to know it over and over again. Maybe except a few peeps in my life. And I should be thankful for having them. But still. Sometimes there are things, I can't speak out loud. Maybe because I feel ashamed. Maybe the moment I do, … Weiterlesen Smile – because they don’t care →

I am trying to live my days from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed. Not in the past. Not in the future. Not in 'what if'? Not in 'why me'? All I have is this day. I heard this also a thousaaaaand times. But to really understand this and … Weiterlesen Be your own fucking hero →

Listen to ur intuition. Listen to how u feel. Don't force. Don't ignore. Observe but don't act immediately. Not everything deserves your reaction. And most important: Leave before u can be left. It hurts less. Because it was your decision. There was nothing passive in it. U decided. U walked away. It always feels better. … Weiterlesen I am easy like Sunday morning →

Lesson learned. The days I feel less beautiful or less likely to take a shower I need it the most. Woke up today and was like naaah..uni? Skip that shit. I took a fast breakfast, not really tasty just to have sth eaten. Then my coffee and got some uni stuff done. By this time … Weiterlesen no matter how u feel – get up. Dress up. Show up. →

somehow by now, I thought I need to get my shit together. Find something solid. Have a trust based relationship. Someone I can trust on and build an empire with. Some I am not loosing my time with. Someone special. Fuck it. Fuck that idea. Fuck loyalty. Fuck trying to find this one person. Fuck … Weiterlesen be a slut. do whatever u want →

Sometimes I cannot stand silence. I feel like falling. My thoughts start running in cycles. Sometimes I cannot be alone. Took me long to admit that to myself. And even longer to figure out why. Don't want to blame my mom for everything. But this is definitely her failure. At least this is how I … Weiterlesen alone →